Sunshine Blogger and Liebster Award

Hello! I was nominated for the Sunshine Blogger Award by the amazing, lovely notjustabook, whose stories are gorgeous dramas with amazing visuals and relatable characters. I also got a nomination from samasasim, whose writing is very beautiful and emotional, little pieces of happiness. Thank you so much, notjustabook and samasasim! Go check out notjustabook’s stories here and samasasim’s stories here. I was also nominated for this and the Liebster Award by livinasimminlife, whose amazing world-building and character-writing skills can’t be praised enough. Thank you so much! You can check out her stories here.

So, the rules for both of these awards are the following:

1. In a blog post, thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.
2. Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.
3. Nominate 11 new blogs to receive the award and write them 11 new questions.
4. List the rules and display the Sunshine Blogger Award logo in your post and/or your blog.

I won’t be nominating stuff, but check out my other award-posts if you want to see some stories I love:
Liebster Award
Animal Award
Sunshine Blogger -Award
The Versatile Blogger -Award

So, here are the questions and my answers, first from notjustabook:

  1. What do you most enjoy about being a member of the WordPress community?
    I like the easy access to lots of really great stories, and I like commenting and reading the comments. At least the Sims-story circles here are very nice, so it’s lovely to connect with them.
  2. How often do you check to see if there’s anything new out here on WordPress?
    Daily.
  3. What makes you call a person a skillful writer?
    When a person can evoke thoughts and feelings with their writing and make the world and the characters come alive, be it through plots, words, dialogue or something else, that’s skill. And add to that some genuine interest in writing and a passion to create and tell their story, you’ve got yourself a great writer.
  4. What do you do when you feel like you’re stuck on a particular storyline and don’t know where to take it? [for the story-driven blogs]
    Sometimes I just go into the game and play. Sometimes I sketch the characters or make them have conversations in my head. Sometimes I just idly think about them while biking or in a sauna. Some of that usually helps.
  5. The prettiest Sim you’ve ever had in your game?
    Don’t make me choose! I find all of the main Sims in my stories aesthetically pleasing. I draw them pretty often. I also have a preference for redheads and pixie-like looks, so there’s plenty of extra prettiness for my eyes in Fey of Life.
  6. Your favorite couple in your gameplay/stories?
    Uuuh… I don’t have many couples that I focus much on. The ones I like the best are very spoiler-y so I can’t really say. 😛
  7. Your favorite non-romantic relationship in your gameplay/stories?
    Tad x Everyone he has a friendly relationship with. 🙂 Well, especially Amelia and Emily. They ground him a lot, and they all have this fiercely protective streak towards each other (well, Emily will, once she grows a bit older). They’re just very natural around each other, which is quite a feat from the eternally shy and awkward Tad. Also I’m very entertained by Novak and Vanja. They have this sort of vitriolic friends/allies -relationship and are constantly snarking at each other, yet they still make a great team.
  8. Have you had a Sim that you fell in love with right away?
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    Duh. Though I really like most of my Sims. Especially the ones that become main characters in my stories.
  9. If you ever did any storylines, what is the one you’re most proud of?
    Right now I’m pretty proud of the first arc of The Chrysanthemum Tango. It allowed me to do so many things I want to do in writing, and I think it tied up everything pretty nicely while still leaving a lot of room for more. Sure, it’s not… all that original plot-wise, but I think the characters and themes and the execution are… okay-ish.
  10. Have you had any Sims that remind you of someone?
    Brigitte Hewitt kind of reminds me of my mother-in-law. 🙂
  11. Is there any random fact about your blog story you want to share?
    I can’t think of any right now. Sorry. :/

Here are the ones from samasasim:

  1. 1. Has any of your writing been inspired by someone else’s SimLit?
    I think the Alien Adoption collab inspires me a lot with my Stardust Sapling. Also I’ll answer this in a little more detail at the end of the post.
    2. What is your favorite word?
    Hankiainen – it’s the Finnish word for the hard-ish crust that sometimes forms on top of snow.
    3. Do you spend an equal amount of time playing as you do writing?
    I think I write more.
    4. Would you rather lay on the beach under the sun, or curl up in front of the fire in a snowy lodge?
    Snowy lodge! Snowy lodge! I could then go outside into the snow!
    5. Have you ever recreated your own home in any Sims game?
    I tried back in TS2. I always got stuck because there wasn’t a possibility to make a sauna with the default stuff in the game and EPs.
    6. What do you do when you get stuck developing a character?
    I talk to them in my head or draw sketches of them.
    7. Has a story ever taken a turn you didn’t expect? What did you do about it?
    Yes. Many times. Usually I roll with it, if the result feels good.
    8. Have you ever tried to rewrite an old story from a new perspective?
    Fey of Life is sort of a recreation of my old (bad) SimLit story. It’s not exactly the same story, but it is about a redheaded, fairy-like child growing up among normal people and realising they have the power of clairvoyance, among other things. The characters are completely different, though, so its not exactly a rewrite, more like adapting old ideas into something new.
    9. Bella Goth is one of my favorite of EA’s townies that jumps between each of the games. Have you ever played her and given her a different life than EA’s mystery?
    I’m not that fond of Bella, so no. There are some writers who have put awesome spins on her story, though. Like munterbacon and livinasimminlife.
    10. Think about someone who makes you smile. Who is it?
    My husband.
    11. If you could sit down with any of your characters for an hour, who would it be, and what would you ask them?
    Tad? I might spend most of the hour being too shy to say anything, and then would try to ask something deep about the universe and failing to ask anything relevant in the end. Um… we could also talk about tea and cute animals?

And here are the ones from livinasimminlife:

  1. What’s your favorite Sims expansion pack (any game) and why?
    SEASONS! I really like the packs that expand the basic gameplay, bring something new without going too far out there (which is odd considering my stories are… probably a bit out there). So also something like The Sims 3 Generations. Also I loved University for TS2.
  2. If you were a Sim, what would your traits be (either TS4 or TS3, unless you feel compelled to answer both)?
    Vegetarian, Artistic, Loner/Shy, Perfectionist, Eco-friendly, Unflirty. (I’ve been to university – two, actually – so I get an additional trait. Ha! :D)
  3. What do you feel you’ve learned from your Sims (the characters, not so much the game, but feel free to write about the game if you’d rather)?
    My writing is quite introspective, so I feel like I learn quite a bit by delving into my characters. Especially about myself. Especially Amelia and Tad both seem to make me look at life from brighter angles, both in their own ways.
  4. What kind of SimLit do you like to read?
    Story-driven, something that is not afraid to be its own thing and also shows the love its creator has for it. I’m partial to fantasy, scifi and detective stories as far as genres go.
  5. What helps you write SimLit? (i.e. for me, I like writing late at night when the house is quiet).
    I think I answered this in previous questions (question 4).
  6. If you could equate your SimLit story to a genre of music, what would it be and why?
    I listen to a lot of progressive and psychedelic rock, especially when I write, so that’s what comes to mind first. Also I think my stories can get a bit psychedelic and artsy. Whether that’s a good thing or not is up to you, I guess.
  7. What inspired you to work on the SimLit story you’re currently writing?
    Fey of Life: Just knowing there was still a Sims-writer community going on inspired me to write again, and I felt like trying to bring back some old ideas… in a hopefully more developed form.
    Chrysanthemum Tango: Indirectly, the death of Sir Terry Pratchett, which inspired me to write a CampNaNoWriMo and then expand on the Death-character in that one.
    Forget-Me-Not and Stardust Sapling: A cool challenge. And especially in Stardust, the cool people in the collab for that challenge.
  8. How do you feel you’ve grown as a writer of SimLit?
    Uh… hopefully I’m better now? I’m better at pacing and also blending the game and my own ideas. I’ve also learned a lot of technical stuff for photoshoots.
  9. Name a SimLit writer (or two or three… if you so choose) that inspires you and tell us why.
    CathyTea: You always make me happy, and your stories paint a picture of a better, kinder world I’d love to live in. Your writing is excellent and amazing, and the kindness you put into everything you do is all kinds of inspiring.
    Livinasimminlife: Seriously, you rock! Your worldbuilding is amazing, and I love how you balance the events of the game and your own ideas. Also you tackle a lot of difficult issues with your writing, which is great.
    MedleyMisty: You write with a hauntingly gorgeous, distinct style and do your own thing, and it really works. Your stories are moving and beautiful, and I admire your strength and the love you put into your stories.
    friendsfan: Your pacing is great and your stories are so touching and funny at the same time. And I love how you haven’t given up despite all the technical difficulties.Really, so many people I could name, but there’s at least some.

And her sunshine questions:

  1. What keeps you going as you write SimLit?
    Both the need/want to tell the stories and the support I get from others. Also it’s super fun.
  2. Of all the worlds in all the Sims games, which world could you see yourself actually living in (i.e. either because it’s similar to your own hometown or it’s a place you’ve always wanted to live)?
    Riverview. It’s kind of like a smaller version of my hometown.
  3. If you could ask any one of my characters (or my Simself) any question, what would you ask? (and if you don’t follow/read my stories, you may replace with another character of your own).
    Mal! How are you? Darn, I just wasted an epic question on that. Just… I’d love to hear more about Mal and his complicated family and his role in his world. 🙂
  4. What’s on your desk (or your immediate writing area) right now?
    My computer, an external hard drive, a pencil case, a sketchbook, a teacup, pens, rulers, an eraser, drawings, an activity tracker, an old tin can where I store stuff like pens, a box cutter etc., hand cream, shea butter, a couple of books, some old tea boxes that are now storage boxes for stuff like USB-drives or tissues, a felt fox I’ve made myself, and some TS3-discs in their boxes.
  5. How do you go about character development, and what part does the game play?
    Lots of it! All the time it feels natural and makes the story better! The gameplay is more prominent when I’m going for a story that spans a long time and has the characters literally grow. Then I take more note on their behaviour in-game as well. But the gameplay does in general give me a lot of ideas and cues for character development.
  6. How would you describe yourself as a reader?
    I read a lot and rather quickly. I can immerse myself into reading easily, but I can also snap back easily. I’m often juggling several stories at once, and might sometimes switch what I read mid-chapter! It sounds a bit aimless, and maybe it is, but it seems to work for me.
  7. If you could change one thing about your writing, what would it be and why?
    Better plots? Because I’m not good at plotting.
  8. What is your overarching goal as a SimLit writer or what are you trying to achieve?
    Write a lot of hopefully good stuff and have fun while doing so. At first one of my goals was also to become more confident about showing my work to others, but I feel like I’ve sort of achieved that already.
  9. Who is one of your favorite SimLit characters and why?
    Gah, so many good ones! I don’t know… I really like Jasper from CathyTea’s Forgotten Art -story. He’s like all the lovable recurring traits in Cathy’s characters condensed into one.
  10. Which of your own SimLit characters is a personal favorite of yours?
    Oh, I shouldn’t play favourites, and I really like all my characters and…
    It’s Tad. So obviously Tad.
  11. If you (or your Simself) could spend a day in another SimLit writer’s story, what story would that be and why?
    Probably anything by CathyTea. Her stories are so happy and in worlds that are just a little bit friendlier and happier than ours while still being exciting.

Well, these have been sitting in my tabs way too long. Sorry for the wait! But thank you again for the nominations. Have a lovely time, everyone!

One More Liebster Award

Hello! I got another nomination for Liebster Award by the lovely stardustdroplet,  (post here) whose writing is insightful, smart, beautiful and makes me feel happy! I’m honoured to get this award again. Thank you!

Check out my previous Liebster post from this summer here for more info on this.

Here are stardustdroplet’s questions:

  1. What are your favourite lyrics from any song?
    Many, but I’m gonna go with the morbidly beautiful and beautifully morbid:

    “Follow me down to the valley below.
    You know,
    moonlight is bleeding from out of your soul.”
    (From Lazarus by Porcupine Tree)

  2. How do you write your stories? Laptop? Computer? Notebook?
    Laptop. I screenshot my TS4 stories on our tabletop computer, though.
  3. What’s the most fulfilling thing you’ve ever done?
    Uh… I think it’s a combination of the small, fulfilling moments in life. Like loving and being loved, succeeding in things I’ve wanted to succeed in, finding peace… put them all in a metaphorical blender and you got yourself a fruitie of fulfillment.
  4. Have you ever done something that felt good at the time, but that you regretted afterwards?
    All the time. I tend to be overly harsh on myself and regret things afterwards, even when they’re not that regrettable.
  5. Name one line from one SimLit story that inspired you!
    There are so many, but I have to share this passage from CathyTea’s Through a Glass Murkly:

    “For the first time since I opened my eyes, beneath this moon, I feel the peace of insignificance. I don’t matter. The specifics don’t matter. Something else, something greater matters, and the space inside me is a place where this something greater can flow.”
    (From the chapter: And Solitude)

  6. If you could name yourself, what would you be called in real life?
    I kinda like my real name. I could go for a Finnish nature word as well. Like Kuura (frost). Or a cute mythological name like Tuulikki (“little wind”, the name of an old Finnish goddess/spirit).
  7. Do you like art? Who’s your favourite artist?
    YES! My favourite artists include Hugo Simberg, Vincent van Gogh, Akseli Gallen-Kallela, Jackson Pollock, Tove Jansson, Oscar Parviainen and many, many others!
  8. Do you have a save where there’s this one townie you absolutely love? Who is it?
    I’m not usually that focused on townies. So… I can’t say there’s any I absolutely love. I do appreciate them and like them, though.
  9. How do you come up with characters?
    Randomly. Sometimes I just start with a name, sometimes a core concept. Sometimes I just think what is needed for the story and start developing from there. Sometimes they just pop into my head.
  10. Do you prefer sunshine or rain?
    Both have their pros and cons. But I’m sun-sensitive so… maybe rain?
  11. What’s your favourite smell?
    Forest after the rain.

Thank you again! And for everyone: have lovely and safe times out there!

Liebster Award and the End of Summer

…or more like the end of my summer vacation? My work has just started. That means I’ll probably have to take some time off from intensive writing at least until I get adjusted to the new rhythm. Again, I’ll try to get Tango‘s first story arc published soon. After that I think I’ll take a little break from Tango and focus on my other stories again.

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Also I got a Liebster Award! From the lovely livinasimminlife, who just got one of her great, drama-filled, rich stories done. Congratulations and thank you! You can check out her award post here, and her blogs are Livin a Simmin’ Life and The Kassiopeia Fullbright Mystery Series.

And here are the rules:

  • Share the award on your blog.
  • Thank the person who nominated you and link back to their blog.
  • Nominate other bloggers who you feel deserve the award.
  • Answer 11 questions by your nominator and ask your nominees 11 questions.

I won’t be nominating stuff this time, but check out my other award-posts if you want to see some stories I love:
Liebster Award
Animal Award
Sunshine Blogger -Award
The Versatile Blogger -Award

And now, the questions:

  1. What is your favorite sound and why?
    The purring of a cat, because CATS! And to me it’s a sound that indicates an approval for closeness, which I think is an important thing to get approval for. Also I love the sound of wind going through plants because nature is awesome.
  2. If you could travel and live anywhere else in the world, where would you go?
    Probably Ireland. I’m still thinking of it as a second home after just a five-month exchange study period.
  3. Who is your role model?
    Hmm… not sure. I feel like I take inspiration from a lot of people around me and farther away. I’d say people who find ways to be happy without taking happiness away from others, and who help others be happy too. And people who dare to be themselves.
  4. When was your last celebration in the Sims and what was it?
    Um… I’m kind of celebrating the fact that I’m almost done with Tango’s first story arc, but gameplay-wise… I can’t even remember. Probably a birthday party for someone.
  5. What about the Sims compels you to write stories?
    I love the possibilities of the game, and how different kinds of people can find their own ways to express themselves through it. I also love that the possibilities are not infinite and the game can be unexpected, so one has to resort to creative thinking if one wants to screenshot a heavily story-driven story, or creatively study and interpret the events of the game in more game-drive stories.
  6. If you could create a world in the Sims, what type of world would it be or what city would you model it after?
    I love Barcelona… I think a fan has already made a Barcelona-world, and that’s really cool.
  7. Who’s your favorite townie or premade and why?
    Hmm… I like reading about townies and premades more than playing them, though lately I’ve started to incorporate them into my games a bit more. Through the stories I’ve read, I’ve really become fascinated with the Rackets because of how interestingly the writers interpret their messed up family dynamics and dodgy morals.
  8. What gets you out of bed in the morning?
    The knowledge that I’ll soon get breakfast and tea!
  9. What is your hidden talent?
    Listening. Not sure if it’s that hidden, though.
  10. If you were a Sim, what would be some of the things you would do?
    I would paint, draw, write, practise martial arts, and explore the neighbourhoods! Also for some wish-fulfillment, I’d get a garden. And a house.
  11. What question would you really like someone to ask you and what would your answer be?
    I love it if a person wonders about some random or not so random philosophical-ish thing out loud, and then we could try to ponder the answers together.

That’s it for now. Have a lovely time you guys!

Unique and Versatile

…are words that make for a very pompous-sounding title for a post. :/ But it just means that The Chrysanthemum Tango got more nominations for both the Versatile Blogger Award (my original post here) and the Unique Blogger Award (original post here). I’m so honoured!

This time the nomination came from the amazing Twiggy, whose stories and builds can be found HERE. Thank you so much, Twiggy!

Also Twiggy’s award posts are here: Versatile and Unique. Do check them out too and find other awesome nominees!

So, since Versatile required me to share some random facts, I figured I’d try to come up with more random facts for this post. So here we go:

1. My Sims-forums/Wordpress name, RipuAncestor, is a combination of two nicknames my friends gave me when I was fifteen. Ripu is a shortened/cute version of my real first name, and some of my friends still call me that. And Ancestor is a translation of Esi-isä, which I was called because I was the oldest and “wisest” in our group of friends. 🙂

2. My favourite game genres are stealth games and Western RPGs (…in which I almost always play stealthy characters if the option is given). Also, if games give me the option to play non-lethally, I very often choose to do so.

3. I got interested in drawing and other visual arts when I was very young, so my parents enrolled me in some evening art classes for kids when I was five. Apparently back then that art school had a two-day entrance exam, which I weirdly enough have absolutely no memory of. I must have passed, though, since going to that art school was one of my hobbies for over a decade.

4. I have Raynaud’s disease, which simply means that my fingers or toes can turn completely white and lose all feeling in colder temperatures. It’s not dangerous, merely annoying. Hey, this did ask for random facts. 😀

5. One of my hobbies is rollerblading, but I often forget to mention it if someone asks what my hobbies are. That may be because the rollerblading season here is quite short, so I could say that it’s my hobby only during the summer.

6. I have a tendency to name everyday objects that I like or use a lot (and yes, this probably became apparent in my previous Versatile Award -post too :D). For example, my current laptop is named Leonard and my cell phone is Walter.

7. When I started writing more in English, I used to alternate between American and British spelling (between pieces of writing, not in a single story). But during my exchange studies in Ireland, my English spelling quite naturally settled for British… though there might still be times when I accidentally mix some minor things up about that.

And here are the questions for the Unique Blogger Award:

  1. When did you find out about simlit and what did this discovery do to you?
    I don’t remember exactly, but I was in my teens. I think around 16 years old, maybe? So that means I’ve known about SimLit for around a decade now. And I was very excited to find them! I’d always had a story-driven approach to my Sims-playing, and now I realised that there was a whole community of these people! I was inspired right away to try my hand in creating my own Sims story.
  2. When and where do you find the inspiration to write simlit?
    Anywhere. Like with all of my writing, really. I can never tell in advance when the ideas strike or where they come from. The game is a good source of inspiration, as is talking to other people (mostly other SimLit authors). And of course, reading and other media give me plenty of ideas too.
  3. How important is the use of custom content in your game and stories to you and why is this?
    I use quite a bit of CC. Mostly clothes and hair, but I started downloading furniture and poses too when I started my TS3 -writing. For me, CC gives its own flavour and helps me make the game more suited for me and stage things that would otherwise be impossible or very difficult to do in-game. I try to get my CC to match the Maxis-made stuff as well as possible, though, and I don’t want to rely too much on CC.

Well, that’s it for now. I hope you all are doing well. I should really start doing my daily NaNo-writing now… so bye!

Unique Blogger Award

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I was nominated for this award by the amazing, lovely CathyTea, who writes SO MANY great, insightful, and joy-inspiring stories that I’m sure anyone can find something they like from her CathyTea’s Simlit Anthology! Check out her blog, and her award-post to see some other nominees too!

And Tango was also nominated by the amazing livinasimminlife, whose rich, detailed worlds, great drama, and likable and intriguing characters make for awesome stories certainly worth the read. You can check out her award post here, and her blogs are Livin a Simmin’ Life and The Kassiopeia Fullbright Mystery Series.

Thank you so much, Cathy and livinasimminlife! I’m honoured!

And the rules for this award are:

  1. Share the link of the blogger who has shown love to you by nominating you.
  2. Answer the questions.
  3. In the spirit of sharing love and solidarity with our blogging family, nominate  8-13 people for the same award.
  4. Ask them 3 questions.

So then, the questions:

By CathyTea:

  1. What are you grateful for at this moment?
    Of the good moments that make life worth living for everyone. Of nature and the wonders it holds. Of the kind of culture and art that shows how wonderful humans are. Of the wonderful people I’ve had and have the fortune to know and to be friends/family/loved ones with. Of the fact that I’m lucky enough to live in such a nice place. And of my mostly good health and the fact that I’ve already experienced so many things, and that I (hopefully) have time to experience so much more.
  2. What’s one of the greatest challenges you’ve faced with your writing?
    Hmm… there have been, and still are many challenges, but I’m going to say that one of the most challenging things has been actually getting my writing out for anyone to see. It has taken a lot of courage, a lot of struggling with thoughts that my writing isn’t good enough for people to see, and just a lot of getting out of my comfort zone in general. Even now, after way over a year of blogging, I still feel anxious and scared whenever I post a chapter.
  3. In your experience, what’s one of the most rewarding aspects of writing?
    Getting ideas out and the feeling of personal accomplishment. The feelings and thoughts that writing can inspire in both the writer and reader. The fact that through stories one can interact with so many people, even thought one isn’t going to even meet most of those people. And I also love the discussions that writing can inspire, and the friendships and loves that can be born through it.

By livinasimminlife:

  1. What is your favorite Sims game moment of all time?
    Woow, nooo idea. I’ve been a simmer for so long I can’t remember… no, wait! I got one! The moment I realised that SimLit was a thing (back in my TS2-days). That made the game open up to me in a whole new way – and I’d loved it even before that!
  2. How would you describe your writing style and process?
    My process is kind of all over the place. Sometimes I plan and write things down, other times I just play with ideas in my head. Sometimes I hold long conversations between my characters while I’m sitting in a sauna (or somewhere else, but the sauna is the best place for that in my opinion). Sometimes I draw pictures to get the creativity flowing. And then I just write. Then I edit. And edit again. Then I write some more and edit while writing.
    My writing style is at least trying to be somewhat whimsical and occasionally meandering. I focus a lot on the inner landscapes and thoughts of the characters as well as natural – though sometimes weird – dialogue. I usually write what I see in my head and then try to put it into words that flow well and look nice. If I can add in a creative or clever metaphor, simile or some other spices, I’m happy.
  3. Who or what inspires/motivates you to write SimLit or write in general?
    I think my love for writing started out from just the desire to create and to get these ideas out of my head – I’ve liked coming up with stories for as long as I can remember. I love the possibilities words hold, and I love playing with language and thinking up stories and maybe even sharing them with someone. As for who inspires me, well, my favourite writers and their amazing work, of course (Terry Pratchett, Neil Gaiman, and Don Rosa first come to mind). The other SimLit authors inspire me a lot as well with their amazing stories, their hard work, and their creative uses of the game. As does the lovely, inviting community that has been built around SimLit.

And then, my nominees, which there aren’t enough to fill the 8-13, but I do have four more reads I’d like to give a shout-out to:

Angel in the Darkness by Marialein – This is an Ambrosia Challenge -based story with quite dark twists, intriguing plot, complex characters and plenty of emotional moments that make this definitely worth checking out!

Dear Bully by eowynstarr – This is a very touching and believable story about a bullied girl and her struggles in life. It’s very well-written and tackles what I feel is a very important and tough subject gracefully.

Orphan Challenge: Harkins Family by cshaner – A story about orphaned sisters trying to survive and build a new home. That alone is an interesting premise with lots of potential for drama and emotional moments, and this story definitely delivers on all of that! The characters are likable, and the drama that has been unfolding especially in the more recent chapters has been great!

The Benders by friendsfan36 – A story about a dysfunctional yet loving family. friendsfan has a great sense of timing and comedy. The story has shifted from more light-hearted and fun into very emotional drama while still keeping the good heart and great timing. Both the story and the development of the characters and writing have been a delight to follow.

And then my questions to these awesome people:
1. What has been your favourite writing-related moment? 
2. Where do you find peace?
3. What are your strengths as a writer, in your opinion?

Also check out my other award-posts if you want to see more stories I love.
Liebster Award
Animal Award
Sunshine Blogger -Award
The Versatile Blogger -Award

Maybe someday I’ll start re-nominating the ones I’ve already nominated instead of lazily linking to my previous posts… :/

Anyway, have a lovely day!

The Versatile Blogger Award

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Hello! I was happy to hear that my story was nominated for this award! Tango was nominated by the lovely socallucyfan from Once Upon a Legacy (Award-post HERE). If you people are looking for a new legacy -story to read and haven’t checked out socallucyfan’s one, then that might just be what you’re looking for! It was also nominated by the amazing velikosmijanje (award-post HERE), whose blog, vsims3contains, among other things, a story about a whole different Sunset Valley! Thank you so much, socallucyfan and velikosmijanje!

I posted my award-post on the Fey of Life -blog, since that one was also nominated. You can check the post by clicking HERE.

Well, I’ll try to get a new chapter out soon. It’s in the last stages of editing so it should be done in no time!

Some last Rays of Sunshine this Summer

…because my summer break will be officially over in just a couple of days. On the other hand, it’ll be nice to return to studying because at least then I have something regular to do. But on the other my studies keep me away from my hometown and my friends and loved ones and some of my very beloved hobbies for the majority of the time. So yeah, not all great. But anyway, the point of this post is that I was nominated once more for the Sunshine Blogger Award by the awesome livinasimminlife (award post here)! Check out her richly built world and intriguing, well-written stories if you haven’t already:
Kassiopeia Fullbright Mystery Series
Livin’ a Simmin’ Life -blog

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The rules of the award:

  • Thank the person who nominated you and add a link to their blog.
  • Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.
  • Nominate 11 bloggers and add their links.
  • Notify the bloggers you include.
  • Keep the rules in your post.

Here’s my original Sunshine post, so check that out for my nominees and my questions!

And now onto the answers:

  1. If you were going to live forever, how would you spend your life?
    Probably travel around and frequently change my identity so nobody would figure out my secret. Or then I’d start a private dojo somewhere in the depths of some forest and become a crazy yet cool martial arts master. 😀 I think eventually I’d just get really, really bored and lonely. I’d probably become that anyway, unless some of my loved ones or friends could live forever too.
  2. What’s your favorite TS3 supernatural and why?
    Hmm… I’m actually not that interested in playing with the supernaturals, though writing Tango has made me appreciate them a lot more. I’m gonna say fairies, because I like how they fly around and because I just really like fairies in general. Also their wings are nice.
  3. Who is your favorite SimLit couple and why? I don’t know… I really like the very interesting and sometimes dysfunctional but still loving couples from Trip and rednenemon’s stories (Eight Cicadas, The Racket-Rotter Chronicles).
  4. What’s your favorite Sims world and why?
    I’ve really fallen in love with Riverview. It reminds me of home and I like this small countryside town aesthetic. Though I really, really like Twinbrook too because swamps for the win! And Bridgeport has its charm with its big city theme and the different feel it has compared to almost any other town. I also think Roaring Heights and Monte Vista look really nice, but I haven’t played them because I don’t want to buy the store worlds.
  5. If you could travel through space, what would be your vessel of choice?
    The Normandy SR-2 from the Mass Effect -series. Provided it came with the awesome and lovable crew of Mass Effect 2.
  6. What is currently on your reading list?
    I should finish Syötäväksi kasvatetut by Elina Lappalainen, which is a non-fiction book about meat-production in Finland. I’m also in the middle of reading the first book in the Witcher -series by Andrzej Sapkowski, AND I should also read the last three Sandman comics by Neil Gaiman. After that I think I’m going to continue with both the aforementioned Witcher -series, and a detective series by Kristina Ohlsson. And then… well, we’ll see what I’ll feel like. I’ll probably soon also read The Life and Times of Scrooge McDuck by Don Rosa for the (roughly estimated :D) hundredth time again because I love it soooooo much.
  7. Do you listen to music when you write SimLit, and if so, what?
    Yes. Depends on what I’m writing and if I want a specific feel to it. If I don’t have anything specific in mind, I’ll just listen to something by Porcupine Tree or Steven Wilson, or possibly Apulanta or something from Silent Hill -soundtracks. Lately I’ve also been listening to a lot of The Pineapple Thief, while writing.
  8. What SimLit character do you find most inspirational? So many. I think that, for example, CathyTea’s stories seem to have whole worlds full of inspirational characters, with very nice, loving attitudes towards life and so much positive energy despite a lot of them facing hardships. On the other hand, I’m also inspired by people living with darker thoughts and lifestyles and still finding moments of happiness and compassion, like in Trip and rednenemon’s stories (again). I especially find rednenemon’s take on Dennis Racket inspiring in this way. livinasimminlife’s Kass, Davis, and Gage are also very inspiring with how real they seem to be, and how they all have their own hardships and flaws but they still find ways to get through life. But, like I said, there are so many inspirational Sims I can’t really pick one.
  9. What culture would you like to learn more about and why?
    Any culture, because I love cultures and I love finding out more about them. But I’ve got a special interest in the Mayan and Irish cultures. Not sure why those, but they just interest me a lot. The languages and the stories about them definitely have something to do with that. I also want to learn more about old Japanese culture mostly because it’s closely connected to karate, which is one of my beloved hobbies/lifestyles. Also I’d like to learn more about the old Finnish culture because it’s interesting, and it’s fun to know the roots of one’s own people. And connected to that, old (and also modern) Scandinavian and Slavic cultures because of their close connection to Finnish culture, plus their really interesting history and lifestyles! And shamans!
  10. What was your happiest/saddest/sappiest Sims game moment?
    Happiest:
    I remember that when I was a younger, more materialistic kid, I’d love those moments when I got a new expansion pack. It wasn’t just because yay, new stuff, but because there was just so much excitement in that moment when I’d look at the game that was still in its packaging, and wonder what it would hold. Gameplay-wise… I don’t remember. I have many happy moments. Usually I just get happy for my Sims whenever they get over a more difficult moment.
    Saddest:
    Probably the first time a Sim died, though I don’t remember it well. I think I managed not to permanently kill Sims in TS1, but during TS2, I started to accept my Sims dying, even though it was still sad.
    Sappiest:
    I remember back in TS2, when I wanted to have a couple go on a perfect date, so to score points in it or whatever it was that TS2 was counting to rank the success level of the date, I made them be so sappily romantic all the time that I think a part of my brain was caramelised from just watching it. The couple even got engaged via a romantic proposal over dinner, even though it was only their first or second date! But hey, the game said the date was awesome so… win?
  11. What’s the hardest thing about writing SimLit and how do you get past it?Writer’s block and the moments when I think my story sucks and should be burned. Though that happens with anything I write or otherwise create. I get over it by taking a step back and maybe rereading things with a slightly different mindset and then maybe do some edits that are needed, or then just find some good things about my writing. Otherwise I have to say that I am occasionally pretty nervous about communicating with people through my blog or the forums. I’m a bit nervous about communicating in general, though, sometimes.

Have a lovely time, people. I’ll try to be back soon with an update!

The Sunshine Blogger Award

Oh, wooooow, both of my blogs were awarded for the Sunshine Blogger Award by thewindsorlegacy! You can check the award-post here. And the next day after that happened, The Fey of Life was also nominated by blamsart (award post), and The Chrysanthemum Tango was nominated by violincat (award post)! Thank you so much, you all. You’re amazing!

I figured that since I posted my last award-post to The Fey of Life -side of things, this time I’d put the post here for balance’s sake. Anyway, I’m so happy and honoured and I should probably see what I have to do now. Okay, here goes:

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Both this award’s name and that pic inspire happy thoughts, and it feels like summer and happiness. Not sure if my stories are about summer and happiness, but I’m so glad to hear that they at least make some people happy!

What is the Sunshine Blogger Award?

Well, it is of course an award for bloggers from other bloggers. It is a beautiful way to share all the amazing things other bloggers do and write about. To recognize their efforts in inspiring others to do what they love.

The Rules:

  1. Thank the person who nominated you and add a link to their blog.
  2. Answer the 11 questions sent by the person who nominated you.
  3. Nominate 11 bloggers and add their links.
  4. Notify the bloggers you included.
  5. Keep the rules in your post.

And here are the questions I was asked by thewindsorlegacy:

  1. Would you rather fight a hundred goose-sized elephants or a goose the size of an elephant?
    A goose the size of an elephant. Because a hundred anything vs. one would definitely drop my odds of winning. Though I’d rather not fight any animals.
  2. Shuffle your songs on your phone/computer/whatever — what’s the first song that pops up?
    I don’t have playlists (my songs are mixed into my fiancé’s playlist), but if I did, it’s very likely that most of the songs on it would be by Porcupine Tree or Steven Wilson. So one of those, maybe.
  3. If you could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you want to be?
    I’m happy here, at home. Though I’d love to visit Ireland again. It’s like my other home, even though I only lived there for a five-month exchange study -period.
  4. Savory or sweet?
    Savory.
  5. What made you create your blog?
    My love for Sims stories and storytelling in general. And nostalgia because I have such fond memories of my TS2 -storytelling days.
  6. What do you do when you want to relax?
    Go for a walk in the forest, or draw, write, read, meditate, or bike. Or just sit down with a nice cup of tea and some reading or a video I can watch. Or, of course, go to a sauna.
  7. What never fails to make you laugh?
    My fiancé being silly. Also cute animals being silly.
  8. Do you prefer living in a city or in a rural area? Or somewhere in-between?
    In-between. A small or medium-sized town near a rural area is nice.
  9. If you could live in any fictional universe, which would you choose and why?
    This is really a tough one. I’m going to go for nostalgia and say the Disney Ducks -comics universe (as written by Carl Barks and Don Rosa – so not DuckTales). As for why, well, it’s basically like real world but with funny animals, all the myths basically true, and an awesome, rich duck from Scotland owning most of the world.
  10. If you could domesticate any animal and have it (safely) be your pet, which would you choose?
    A fox or a lynx… ooh, or a dragon!
  11. What is your favorite word?
    I really like most of the Finnish nature words, especially ones that describe wintry things. Out of them all I’m going to say hankiainen is probably my favourite at this moment. It means the phenomenon when the snow can hold a person’s weight (while usually still being rather fluffy underneath a layer of hard snow). In English I just realised I really liked the word serendipity. It’s cute and fancy at the same time. In Swedish I love kramsnö, which means sticky snow, but could literally be translated as “hug snow”. I could go on, but I guess those will do.

Questions from blamsart:

  1. Fav song! Right now! I want to discover more😀
    Sooo many… but I’m gonna say Drive Home or Ancestral by Steven Wilson (and sooo many of his other songs too).
  2. How’d you come up with the title/last name of your story?
    For Fey, it was a pun on “the way of life”. For Tango, it was just a random thing. Something about flowers and dancing and beds of roses. And because the word chrysanthemum just stuck somehow.
  3. How much space does sims storytelling take up in your life?
    Right now quite a lot, mostly because I’m a student without a steady summer job, so I have a lot of free time. It’ll change a bit once university starts again.
  4. Are you sometimes afraid your next hiatus could be your last?
    Maybe? Though I’m very stubborn to finish my stories. I think I’m more worried that I’ll eventually reach a point where I’ve written myself into a corner and just can’t figure out how to gracefully end the story.
  5. Favorite type of romance to write?
    Platonic. 😀 Does that count? If it doesn’t, well, I’m not a fan of writing romance, but if I do, it’s slow-building and consists of lots of talking.
  6. Any deep dark fears? Like afraid of lightning or water?
    I have mild claustrophobia. As in I feel very uncomfortable with just the thought of being stuck in a space so small that I wouldn’t have room to properly move. Also being outside during a thunderstorm makes me really uneasy.
  7. Are you the type to run away from danger or towards it?
    I consider myself a reasonable person with a healthy sense of self-preservation. So I guess it depends on the danger.
  8. Do you have any characters that represent who you want to be? Or wanted to be at some point?
    Any non-biological character I’ve ever written, in a way. Sometimes I’d just want to be a spirit of some kind. Or some forest-dwelling pixie-thing. Also any cat character I’ve ever written too.
  9. Take one of your characters. Pick randomly! Got them? Okay drop them in a pit of snakes (venom or not? no one knows). What’s their reaction?
    I asked my fiancé to randomly pick a character, and he picked Vanja, so:
    Vanja Leifsdóttir: Oh, good, these make for excellent potions! *zap* –> Dead snakes.
  10. Have you ever watched a movie and gone – “oh that gives me a really great idea for my story…”. If the answer was YES, what movie? And what idea?:)
    When I watched Det Sjunde Inseglet (The Seventh Seal), I was like: “Yes! I want to feature the danse macabre in Tango at some point!” And I did! I’m sure there are other moments like this too.
  11. The ultimate question…Patch 1.67 or 1.69? Did you feel the disturbance?
    Yes. I feel the disturbance, but I’m also too lazy to change back to 1.67.

Questions by violincat:

  1. Do you have any favorite characters in your own stories? Who?
    I love all of my characters in some ways, but I have to say that Tad has an extra special place in my heart. He’s usually very easy to write, and sometimes he helps me think about things in new perspectives.
  2. What are your favorite genres to read or watch?
    Fantasy, especially urban fantasy. Murder mysteries. Dark comedy. Scifi.
  3. Which fictional character do you wish you could be real life friends with?
    Death from Discworld. Also Nick Valentine from Fallout 4.
  4. Would you rather land the perfect job or find true love?
    Well, right now I’m very happy with the person I’m sharing my life with, so I’m gonna say perfect job.
  5. Do you cook or bake? If not, would you want to learn how to?
    I cook and bake. Sometimes it’s fun, and sometimes it’s a chore. Thankfully my fiancé also cooks and bakes so we take turns.
  6. What is your dream career?
    Teaching art to kids (not in school) and doing my own creative work on the side.
  7. What is the one thing you absolutely can’t live without?
    Food. Water. Oxygen… Okay, but less obviously, art (be it visual arts, writing or whatever).
  8. Which country do you most want to visit?
    Right now I really want to go back to Ireland at least for a short visit. I’d also really like to visit Iceland. And Australia and USA would be interesting too.
  9. Are you a day or a night person?
    I like evenings the most.
  10. Would you want to become famous?
    No. I wouldn’t mind getting a book published or some art into an exhibition or a gallery someday, but I’d rather not become famous.
  11. What do you like the most about gaming?
    The interactivity and the extra dimension of immersion it can bring. Also good stories and characters, but I like those in any medium.

And then to the next part… uh… So right now I really have to say that there aren’t enough blogs that I’m following here that I wouldn’t have already nominated on my other two award-posts, so uh… maybe go check them out? I mean, I think the blogs I’ve nominated before are so awesome and great that they deserve heaps of awards! So here’s my Liebster Award -post and my Animal Award -post, where I say nice things about the blogs I’d nominate all over again!

AND I do have a few new finds for awesome reads that I’d like to nominate right now (in alphabetical order):

The Chains of Lyra by Trip – This story is a pretty new one, but it’s already very intriguing with its scifi-premise, with its connection to Trip’s other awesome story Eight Cicadas, and with Trip’s great writing.

The Last 100 Years by JLBDreams16 – Another new story, but it’s also already looking so promising. It has a Korean mythology -inspired setting that had me hooked from the start, and a very nice theme of balancing between past and the present, tradition and change, and experiencing new cultures and also holding onto one’s roots.

The Racket-Rotter Chronicles by Senna – This is a dark, delightfully twisted story set in the Sims 3 world. Great characters, humorous moments, and a good heap of heartwarming blended together with the dark, intense themes and events into a truly great mix. Note: This story is definitely intended for mature audiences.

And here are some questions anyone who feels like answering can answer:

  1. What are your greatest blogging-related moments or memories?
  2. What is the nicest place you have ever visited?
  3. What are your greatest positive qualities?
  4. Why do you write? What are the things you like the most about writing?
  5. What do you do when it’s raining outside?
  6. Favourite drink?
  7. Pet peeves?
  8. Which superpower would you like to have?
  9. Which foreign language sounds especially nice in your opinion?
  10. Do any of the characters you write have a specific voice that you hear whenever you write their lines?
  11. What are some of the little things in life that make you happy?

Have a lovely day, everyone!

Chapter 12: Emily

WARNING: Contains a slightly macabre death scene and offhand depictions of severe injuries (though no violence). It’s pretty tame but if you’re creeped out/sickened by pixel-blood, then read at your own discretion.

Even in a small town like Riverview there were some people who just flew under the radar. People liked to think that everyone knew everyone in a close-knit farming community like this, but the truth was that there were always some quiet outcasts. They weren’t obvious about it like Mr. Cottoneye, who sat in his bunker of a house, waiting for the apocalypse and yelling at everyone who got too close. They were more like the mailman whom no one could recognise out of uniform and who sat in his living room with just a cup of hot cocoa for company every night. They were like a person people pretended to know but could really barely name. And they could also have quietly shut themselves out of the world, like Erica Sato.

Erica Sato’s parents had moved to SimNation as a hopeful young couple with big dreams. They had lived in SimCity until Erica had come to their lives, after which they had decided that a big city wasn’t good for their young child. From a very young age, Erica had suffered from rather severe agoraphobia, so Mr. and Mrs. Sato had decided to move to the smaller, quieter Twinbrook, where they had lived until Erica was an adult and in love. Those had been the happier parts of her life.

After that several unfortunate events followed, most of which are sadly not a part of this story. What is important was that life kept clobbering Erica, tragedy after tragedy, until her traumas and her agoraphobia made her decide that moving to an even smaller town and locking the doors of her house and going out as little as possible was the best idea she had ever had. By the time a very hot June day, some rain showers that didn’t do much to relieve the sweaty air, and rather severe plumbing problems swept over Riverview, Erica Sato had lived there for three years, and the only people who knew about her were the mailman and a grocer, who delivered food for her in regular intervals.

So with that in mind it may have come as a surprise that her paths crossed with Amelia and Tad that day, or any day for that matter. Though perhaps it was not all that surprising, seeing how Tad met everyone, at some point, and into Amelia’s life she only came by proxy.

That morning several of the houses in Riverview were experiencing those previously mentioned plumbing issues. Erica Sato’s house was one of them. She had barely had time to open the kitchen faucet until it started to leak rather violently, and Erica’s day had instantly got worse. Though not as bad as it got a few moments later. For even though Erica was already quite experienced with keeping her own house fixed, this time there was perhaps more at work than just faulty pipes. This time, she had simply terrible luck on her side.

So it was a convenient not-coincidence that Tad Dustpine’s morning walk route that day happened to pass through her neighbourhood.

Erica Sato had flown mostly under Tad’s radar as well for a large part of her life. He knew about the deaths of her parents and of her boyfriend, of course. All of them had happened a bit too soon and too quickly. But after those she had disappeared from Tad’s mind, and he hadn’t paid her much thought until that morning when he woke up after a night of pondering and sensed that she had been marked for death.

She was still young, not even thirty. And as Tad ascended the creaky stairs to her home, he took a second to lament how avoidable a lot of the unfortunate deaths were in the worlds. But then the moment was gone, and he was back to being professional.

He opened the door.

The sound of spraying water greeted him. The water was raining up and then down from a kitchen sink that was stained with watered down blood. Water always made blood look very unreal, like red ink or watercolour paints. The blood spread even further than the water, getting drier and darker at some point, more real. Other than that everything seemed to be in a deceptively good shape. Though Tad didn’t need to open the doors under the sink to see that the pipes had burst into pieces quite fiercely, and that someone had been in front of them at the worst moment. He could tell that by looking at the woman crawling on the floor.

Her entire life of trying to keep things in order had conditioned her to kick the cupboard doors back shut even when her lungs were filling with blood. She was breathing panicked, hitching last breaths with a length of pipe protruding from her back. It was not the most gruesome thing Tad had seen that week, but he didn’t like to start comparing levels of gore or tragedy. If he stopped seeing each death as single significant events, he might forget how to step out of his usual bigger picture. Miss Sato was coughing up blood that she would probably soon drown in. She was trying to call for help, but she had no voice anymore. Not that it would have helped much anyway. The explosion might have been loud enough to alert the neighbourhood, but the neighbours probably didn’t even know she lived here.

But Tad knew.

“Hello, Miss Sato,” he said, “It is quite alright. I am here to help you.”

Miss Sato looked up, her foggy eyes wild and reminding Tad of a cornered kitten. Then she staggered to her feet, pulling the pipe out of her chest and barely wincing. Then the adrenaline stopped working again, and she stumbled into Tad.

Her arms wrapped around him, and she started to tremble and cry.

It was an uncommon reaction, but not an unheard of one. Most dying souls shied away from him, but some were – for a variety of reasons – happy to see him. In this case, though, Tad had a feeling that Miss Sato would have clung to anyone who genuinely promised to help her. He slowly raised his arms and hugged her back.

“I am here. You will go to a safe place. There will be plenty of room, plenty of peace.”

Miss Sato sobbed into his shoulder, and her body started to lose all of its strength. She was dying already when her legs went weak. Her more intangible arms still held on, though, and she regained her voice, even though it echoed much more than it had in life.

“Do I have to go?” she asked.

“Well, you cannot go back either. Not entirely.”

Miss Sato nodded against his shoulder. Her instincts were taking over. Usually it was the moment of panic that let the souls find the way to the beyond quickly. Tad was glad about that. The human brain was so complicated that if it were allowed to fully function in the time of death, things would get complicated too. People always had so many roads and second thoughts. Panic meant less in-betweeners. Those who got stuck halfway didn’t have the most pleasant of existences.

However, with Erica Sato, her death instincts weren’t the only instincts at work.

“I… help… Emily… I’m so sorry…” she cried.

Tad frowned.

“Emily? Who is Emily?”

But Miss Sato was already going, being pulled into the beyond by her shocked subconscious. She vanished from his arms, and Tad was left with the empty shell that lay on the floor.

“Um…” he said, “Well, I am glad that you found your way, but who is…”

“…Emily?”

“Oh. Um… Okay.”

Amelia was having a good day. It was a Sunday, and she was sitting on dad’s rocking chair with a perfectly sappy romance novel in her hands. The weather was too hot for going outside for long without a heavy refreshment arsenal, but thankfully she had already finished putting the house in summer condition during the last couple of weeks.

The railings had needed some new stain varnish, and the windows had begged for a wash, and Amelia was glad she had got the work done before the heat wave started. She had also trimmed the flower bushes and done some more repairs around the house. So now she felt that she more than deserved a calm evening and the chance to find out whether the two star-crossed lovers would get each other or not. The two lovers were just in the most romantic of places, the one where they had first met, about to declare their love for each other when the doorbell rang. Amelia stood up reluctantly and rather surprised. She wasn’t expecting guests. It was probably Tad, then. Perhaps he had another question about humans. Or maybe he wanted to have tea again. Amelia wouldn’t mind that.

She opened the door and gasped.

“What the-?!”

“Hello, Amelia,” Tad said and smiled rather nervously. He was holding a small girl in his arms. A… small, very real-looking child. Out of all the things Tad could have done, this was one of the least expected. The girl started to cry.

“Tad…” Amelia cleared her throat, “Who’s that? And… whose is that?”

Tad patted the girl’s head clumsily, but surprisingly gently.

“This is Emily Sato,” Tad said, “I rescued her.”

“You… what?” Amelia stared, “Um… like… really rescued? But I thought you didn’t… do that… Tell me you didn’t kidnap that child or something!”

“Of course not! What do you take me for? Honestly, I thought you trusted me better than that already. But…”

Tad looked around, the nervousness still evident on his face.

“It is a bit of a long story,” he said, “Perhaps we should talk indoors.”

Amelia massaged her temples.

“I guess we should, then.”

She could only barely hold her questions at bay until the front door was closed again.

“Okay, what’s going on?”

Tad adjusted his grip on the little girl and his smile became a bit less nervous. A bit.

“First of all, you do not have to worry. This time I am sure I did things right.”

“What things?”

“Mixing my work with humanity, of course,” now Tad’s smile gained a hint of pride, “I even called the police myself. Well, I did not call, per se, but thought really hard about calling and then the police thought I called.”

“What?”

“It was actually a bit funny, I suppose. Mr. Dean was the one who answered the call. He arrived to the scene with his partner and asked me what had happened and I told him that I had stumbled upon the scene of the accident by chance.”

“What accident?”

“A pipe explosion in the house. Mr. Dean and his partner – I think it was Mr. Breckenridge actually – investigated the house and then asked me if I knew the victim.”

“Who?”

“Miss Sato. I told them we had met, which was technically true, and then they asked me if I knew a good place for Emily for a moment. I said yes, because I could not think of anything else, and because I did know a good place. This place!”

Amelia stared. She knew Tad was really, really trying to make sense. And it was almost working too. But he seemed to be so hyped about this “rescue” that he kept slipping to his far less linear thinking.

“So…” Amelia frowned, “Why exactly did the police want to find a good place for Emily?”

Tad sighed.

“Because her mother got a pipe through her lungs?”

“What?! Tad! You’ve got to start over. Just… tell me what happened. From the beginning.”

”Oh. Sorry. Okay.”

And Tad did start over, this time managing to be more or less chronological. He told about the accident and about the end of Erica Sato. Then he told about her last words and the four-year-old girl who had sat in the slowly flooding living room, crying and afraid. Once he was done, Amelia was wiping away shocked tears.

“Oh… the poor girl… and poor Miss Sato!” she sniffed, “I didn’t even know anyone by that name lived here.”

“Not many did,” Tad said, “She had closed herself off from the world… along with her daughter. She lost too many in the past.”

Emily started to cry again. Tad sighed.

“Uh… can you help me with her? She keeps crying. And if I try to put her down, she cries even harder.”

The toddler – Emily – seemed to cling to Tad like he was the last safe thing in her world. Her cheeks were wet with tears, and she let out a squeak of protest whenever Tad made a move to get her to let go of his shirt.

“Shouldn’t we try to figure out if there’s some next of kin to her first?” Amelia asked.

“There is not,” Tad said at once, “Though I am sure the police will start thinking about that soon. I was honestly surprised they let me just take her, actually. Perhaps they thought that place was not good for her. I certainly thought so.”

Amelia sighed.

“Fine. Let’s not stress her out further with social services or anything. Yet. We’ll make her comfortable and then think about calling someone.”

Tad’s eyes shone.

“I knew this was a good place for her!”

There was something far too hopeful in his voice when he said that.

Amelia climbed upstairs and went to her room. Elise the pixie-bear sat in its usual spot, looking pretty. Amelia lifted the bear up. She supposed there was no harm in someone else playing with it. She was a bit too old for it most of the time anyway. When she got back downstairs, Tad had finally managed to get Emily to let go of him. She sat on the floor, sobbing quietly. Tad looked at Amelia helplessly.

“Oh, cuddly things,” he said when he noticed Elise, “Are they powerful enough to get through the trauma of losing a parent?”

Amelia shrugged.

“They can be a good distraction. Also maybe we shouldn’t talk about Erica like that right now. Just because Emily hasn’t said a word doesn’t mean she doesn’t understand.”

She crouched in front of Emily, who backed away but didn’t start crying harder. That was a start, Amelia guessed. To be fair, she hadn’t been around children enough to deem herself skilled with handling them. But she knew enough to know that a warm smile and the sense of security went a long way.

“Hello, Emily,” she said gently, “My name is Amelia. And this is Elise. Do you want to say hello?”

Emily stared at Elise with shimmery eyes. Slowly, a tentative smile formed on her face, and she reached out with her hand. Amelia smiled when Emily slipped her arms around the bear.

“Okay,” she whispered, “So… what else… she’s probably hungry. I wonder if she has allergies.”

“I do not know,” Tad shrugged, “But… decide on a food item you wish to serve her.”

“What?” Amelia asked.

“Just do it.”

“Okay… uh… a jam sandwich? White bread, raspberry jam?”

Tad closed his eyes for a second.

“It will not kill her, at least. And there is only a small chance she is allergic at all.”

“Are you sure?”

“Yes. If she were about to die, I would know.”

“Um… okay, I’ll take your word for it.”

Those were the weirdest instructions for serving a snack Amelia had ever got. But she trusted Tad. In many ways, at least. Though some might have said she shouldn’t. She walked into the kitchen and returned a bit later with a sandwich on a plate with her. Emily had moved into the living room, and was cuddling with Elise, sometimes even rather violently.

She obviously hadn’t yet realised what had happened to her and her mother. At least not fully. She did know something scary and bad had happened, and that her mother was hurt, most likely. Amelia wondered when it would really sink in. She doubted someone so little even understood death. Not that adults did either, but they at least knew it meant something permanent. She set the sandwich on the floor near Emily. The girl looked at it, wide-eyed, and then her eyes found Tad, who was sitting on the couch and looking just as lost as the little girl.

“You should eat it,” Tad said quietly, “I doubt you have eaten all day.”

Emily nodded slowly, and reached out towards the plate. Tad slid down next to her, and she cautiously took the sandwich into her tiny hand.

“She seems to feel safe around you,” Amelia remarked.

Tad just nodded. He didn’t speak for a long while. Only when Emily had finished eating and was yawning, stretching her jam-sticky fists towards the ceiling, did Tad finally say something again:

“I think she needs to sleep.”

“Yeah, I see that,” Amelia said, “We should really call the social services now. She can’t exactly stay here.”

Tad looked at Amelia, eyes wide.

“I… why not?”

“Um… because one doesn’t just decide to adopt a kid without any paperwork and endless discussion with the authorities? Besides, I doubt I’d even be qualified for that sort of thing.”

“I was not talking about… adoption!” Tad said, “Just… a good night’s sleep. A chance to rest without… I do not know. The questions and all the things people want to ask after accidents and deaths.”

He reached out his hand to Emily, and Emily looked at it for a second and then took it. She didn’t stop there, though; she crawled into Tad’s arms and clung to him again. Tad stood up, startled but with enough sense to keep his hold on Emily. The little girl seemed to nod off in seconds with her head on his bony shoulder. Amelia stared, but Tad seemed to be even more shocked than she was. He closed his eyes, as if listening to the situation would make more sense than seeing it.

“I still do not believe it…” he breathed, “What… what should I do?”

The sight was just so oddly comforting that Amelia couldn’t help smiling.

“I think she’d be more comfortable on the couch.”

Slowly, carefully like walking on glass, he came to sit on the couch. He moved Emily very carefully in his arms until she was in a more comfortable position. She stirred and made a small, faint noise in her sleep, but didn’t wake up. Amelia couldn’t say she blamed her. The day must have been exhausting for her. Now that she looked at her, Amelia again felt the same deep sorrow that had struck her when Tad had told her story. The poor little girl had nowhere to go now. And she was so young…

“She does not fear me,” Tad said quietly, still in awe of the tiny child in his arms, “She saw me reap her mother, but she thinks I am… safe.”

He shook his head.

“I think she paid more attention to when her mother clung to me. Miss Sato was in a panic. For her, anyone friendly was welcome to comfort her at that moment… I think that made Emily think I was a good person. Even though I was not good. Or a person. I just… was.”

“You saved her, right?” Amelia said, “I’d say that counts as good. Although… saving Erica too would have been… better, don’t you think?”

“Miss Sato was marked for death,” Tad said, “You know how it is. But Emily would not have died. She would have spent possibly a few hours scared next to her mother’s corpse, alone until the police found her. Had she not seen me, I would have probably alerted the police and left. But she was there… crying… reaching out to me… I did not know what to do… so I picked her up. And she trusted me. No one usually does. Not like this at least.”

“I’d hate to ruin this, but you do realise that she’s probably not old enough to understand the concept of death, right?”

“I… suppose you are right,” Tad said. He sighed and closed his eyes again, “You can… you can call the authorities in the morning.”

Amelia didn’t even realise she had fallen asleep, but after waking up and finding out it was morning she quickly concluded that she indeed had. The couch was surprisingly comfortable to sleep on despite being rather old and mostly made out of basket.

She yawned and stretched her arms, opened her eyes and then remembered what had happened yesterday.

Tad was still sitting on the couch, Emily sleeping in his arms. He was like a sentinel, or an ancient guardian statue that would come to life should anyone lay a hand on what he was guarding. His eyes were open, but he didn’t seem to be all there.

“Tad?” Amelia whispered.

Tad blinked.

“Oh, sorry,” he said, “I was focusing on having a heartbeat so she does not start to think that I am not here. And I was working. At the same time. I had to get out of the house to remember who I am.”

“Oooookay… How’s Emily?”

“Asleep,” Tad said, “though I think she is about to wake up. She keeps stirring.”

Amelia stood up and stretched her arms some more. Her back gave a small pop. Perhaps sleeping on the couch wasn’t the best idea after all.

“Let’s get some breakfast and take her upstairs,” she said, “She can play in the library while I make the calls.”

Once they had got Emily to eat something and got her carried her up the stairs – she still refused to go much of anywhere without clinging to Tad – her face brightened a bit.

She actually braved the unknown and walked a bit unsteadily to Amelia’s old toy box. After some rummaging she dug out a toy dinosaur and giggled, clearly approving of it. She was an adorable sight, Amelia had to admit. Although the adorableness was shadowed by tragedy. Amelia sat down in one of the library’s armchairs and set her hands on her knees. She looked at Tad with her best serious expression.

“Okay, so, I’m going to call the social services,” said Amelia, “They’ll no doubt want to bring someone here. Then they’ll take care of Emily. Probably find her a good new family and home if she really has no relatives that could take care of her. You understand?”

Tad nodded.

“Yes. I am somewhat aware of how it works.”

“Really?”

“Well, the keyword being somewhat.”

“Okay. So… are you okay?”

“Me?” Tad frowned, “Why would I not be?”

“Well, because you seem to be so shaken by the whole thing.”

“Shaken?” Tad shrugged, though the movement was far less nonchalant than he’d clearly have wanted, “Well, I suppose you could say that. This is just… confusing. This… someone being so trusting even after she saw me… take her mother away.”

“I can somewhat imagine,” Amelia said.

“Really?”

“The keyword being somewhat,” Amelia chuckled, “Don’t worry. I’ll make the calls. You don’t have to talk to the social workers.”

“Oh… that is… nice. Thank you.”

So Amelia made the calls and tried to sound as business-like as she could, even though her voice kept wavering as she recounted Emily’s tale. Luckily the police officers had already alerted the social services about the situation at least somewhat. Apparently they had already been looking for little Emily, too.

Out of the corner of her eye Amelia saw Emily first playing with Elise for a while, and then cautiously approaching Tad and reaching out at him with her small hands. With a fragile smile, Tad picked her up again.

The social workers arrived in the evening. With them came George Dean in his police uniform. He shook his head at the door.

“So… how come you people have somehow started to be associated with all the weird deaths in the neighbourhood lately?” he said, and Amelia honestly couldn’t tell if he was joking or not. She just smiled and hoped she didn’t look too nervous.

The social workers introduced themselves as Carl Strummer and Bessie Biller, and they looked so different from each other that they could have formed a comedy couple in a film. Carl was skinny and stern, angular and clinical, whereas Bessie was warm and round, though even she had a bit of sternness in her eyes. Amelia led them into the living room, where Tad and Emily were waiting. Amelia automatically asked if they wanted tea or coffee, but they all said no. The social workers preferred to go straight to business.

“Well, this is certainly an unusual and tragic situation,” said Bessie, and the warmness Amelia had seen in her at first was kicked out by the slightly grumpy tone of her voice, “I can’t believe the police didn’t take the child to us directly!”

“Ma’am,” said George, “We were investigating the scene of the accident. And it seemed like the best solution at the time.”

“Well, I’ll certainly be reporting this to your superiors,” Bessie said, “But what is done is done, and little Miss Sato doesn’t seem to be harmed, at least.”

“I seriously hope you did not expect that Amelia would hurt a child?” Tad asked, and Amelia glanced at him. They had agreed that he would talk only when necessary. Apparently Tad had forgotten about that.

“Well, not her. But… well, never mind,” Carl Strummer said, “Thank you for reporting this. We won’t be taking too much of your time. Mr. Dean wants to get statements from you two, and then we can take Emily off your hands.”

“What will you do to her?” Tad asked. Emily tightened her grip on his shirt.

“We have already done a little bit of checking, and Emily doesn’t seem to have any close family left,” Carl explained, “A very unfortunate incident, indeed. So we will take her to our facility and to the hospital to make sure she’s alright. After that we will start looking for a suitable family. There are not many here in Riverview who take in children, but we will start from here anyway.”

“It will probably be for the best, seeing how this is likely the only town the girl has ever known,” Bessie said, “Now, I would like to talk to Emily. Could you set her down, Mr. Dustpine?”

Tad hesitated, and then set Emily on the floor. Emily’s lip trembled. Bessie rose from the couch and sat down in front of Emily.

“Hello, Emily,” she said, and the grumpiness in her voice was gone and she was filled with genuine warmth again, “I am Bessie Biller. How are you?”

Here it should be noted to Miss Biller’s credit that she was indeed very good with children. She had managed to calm down many a traumatised case during her already quite long career. But sometimes things didn’t quite click. It was just how life went.

And in this case, young Emily was still a bit too lost and confused to accept any sudden questions from a stranger who wasn’t even hiding behind a stuffed bear. She burst into tears again.

“Oh, dear, it’s alright, honey…”

“Perhaps I could be of assistance?”

It took Amelia a moment to realise it was Tad talking. Outside of him interacting with people in the context of his job, she had never heard him speaking so confidently.

Heck, he was almost smug when he picked Emily up and gave her a reassuring look and a couple of quiet words of comfort. Emily stopped crying almost instantly.

“There,” said Tad, “She trusts me.”

He probably didn’t mean to sound mean. Amelia was sure that he was just so immensely proud about the whole trust-thing that he couldn’t keep it hidden. Miss Biller didn’t seem impressed.

“That is wonderful. Thank you, Mr. Dustpine,” she said dryly, “But I think Mr. Dean wants to get your statements now and then we can be on our way.”

“Of course,” said Amelia, who was mostly just glad that her faint worst-case scenarios that involved kidnapping charges weren’t about to come true.

Tad hesitated again. Then his gaze hardened.

“Well, to me it looks like Emily does not want to leave me,” he said defiantly, almost childishly.

Somewhere nearby, the universe shifted nervously. Bessie Biller crossed her arms.

“Mr. Dustpine, can you honestly give me even three reasons why you could be a suitable caretaker for Emily?”

Tad stared at her for several eternity-long seconds. Then, reluctantly, he gave Emily into the social worker’s hands.

After Mr. Dean was done questioning them, they said goodbyes at the front door like Amelia had been taught was always proper to do. As Amelia watched their retreating backs, she sighed a long, sad sigh.

“I really hope things will be alright with her.”

Tad was quiet.

“Tad? Are you… oh my goodness!”

“What?”

“I just missed a whole day of work, didn’t I?”

“Oh. I suppose you did.”

“I have to call my boss right now!”

“Right. You do that,” Tad said in the most anaemic, depressed voice she had ever heard coming out of him.

Amelia spun around. Tad was already walking towards his room with awkwardly shuffling steps.

“Tad? Are you alright?”

He didn’t reply.

Her missed work day and possibly angry boss forgotten again, Amelia rushed after Tad, but he was already in his room when she got to the door. The door was firmly locked, and Amelia knocked on it to no avail.

“Tad?” she asked again, but the silence was her only response.

This whole thing must have hit him harder than Amelia had thought. And she had already sensed that a lot of things had been amiss ever since that little, traumatised girl had clung to him for safety.

Amelia pressed her hand on the door, reminded of the time when things had been reversed and Tad had stood outside Amelia’s door, trying to get her to talk. Back then she had needed time. Perhaps he did too.

“Tad… I’m sorry this upset you,” she said, “Just… I hope you’re alright.”

She waited for a while longer, but then sighed and trudged back inside.

Author’s Note: I… I think I had something to say about this. Uhh… yeah, Emily is a character now! I think this started with me thinking that it would be funny to see Tad trying to temporarily take care of a small child… and then it turned into something much more far-reaching and serious. Yeah, this is probably why I can’t write funny stuff outside of some specific instances. I usually get distracted by the darker or more emotional things. Also this turned into this because I got this image into my head of Tad comforting a dead person’s ghost while their corpse is lying on the ground, which I then tried my best to recreate in the game and this all happened. It was a lot of fun to do.

Also I already said this in The Fey of Life -side of things, but I have a new computer now, so from the next chapter on the pics are going to be IN WIDESCREEN! Oh yeah! Or not… depending on your preferences. But I do quite like the new pics, although I now have to do some practising to make the closeups look good and without too much empty background…

Gotta love Tad’s kind of smug expression in the pic where he’s holding Emily and looking at Bessie Biller. That was accomplished entirely through in-game animations and without cheats and I was so pleasantly surprised by how that expression turned out. 🙂

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